Treatment

In a new universe of free thought and unimagined consequences I dare to live. The day to day fallacies of my old life are just bad dreams in this new realityscape. Every so often I awake from an all too familiar nightmare, a bit disoriented and always wondering if the dream i wake from is my reality and the reality I wake to is just my dream. Strangers things have happened and living two lives wouldn't be such an awful thing even if neither is close to perfection.

Finding myself now in any reality and aware of some of my surroundings leaves me with a bitter taste, just like the hangover after taste from a night of cheap booze. I take that as a side effect of reality swapping. A reminder, no matter what I do here I still have to return to my other life.

As much as I have done here I have done there, and yet the feelings of inadequacy and of need to achieve more, rarely leave me. It is not the sense of failure but that of an urgency to do more. Always need to do more.

So with this sense of being two in one, of one in two places, I live everyday, and today is the day I try to piece it all together.

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